I've been a little caught up in my head of late. It happens. I go through periods like this often. And I'm gradually becoming more aware of them and learning how to be tame my thoughts.
Throughout my life I've been on a quest of sorts to reach a certain place. I've had a niggling feeling that wherever it is, I haven't yet arrived. When in fact I have. And I'm right where I need to be.
It seems quite common amongst those with anxiety - this never-ending search for 'something else'.
"Anxiety is a feeling that you've 'not finished something ...
that one has to look for something or ... come into the clear about something'.
– Karl Jasper (via Sarah Wilson's 'First we make the beast beautiful')
"It's like we're searching for a Something Else that makes us feel ... what?
Like we've landed, I suppose."
– Sarah Wilson, First we make the beast beautiful
I'm sure at times that we all feel there is something else. That there are 'better things' that when found or acquired we believe will help us feel happy and content. A better house, better career, better country to live, better weight, better financial stability etc.
But often the better things are right in front of us. Happening in real time. In our environment. In nature. In the faces and movements of those we love. And within ourselves.
When we really open our eyes, that is when we see it. When we feel it.
When we begin to accept and appreciate all the good things we already have. When we are able to look inwards with kindness and allow our true selves to surface. That is when we soar.
"The true secret to happiness lies in taking a genuine interest in all the details of daily life."
– William Morris